Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Suicide: Thoughts of a Young Man; “You just want to get it over with and die”

By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS
 
There is no feeling quite like watching yourself slowly go crazy.

Clasping your chest and looking at your surroundings in fear, panting, heavy breathing, cold sweats, shivering, whimpering, mumbling and doing your best to keep your eyes open because you're afraid that if you close them they won't open again.


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Whispering to yourself in a corner, trying hard to remember your fragile hopes, dreams and ambitions.

Reminding yourself of the things that make you happy but they slip away anyway. Hitting yourself in the head as hard as you can so you won't forget your name. Hearing the beat of your heart and knowing it's not happy.

Retreating to the edge of your bed hoping no one will hurt you. Looking for a safe place but not even feeling safe in what should be your home.

Clawing at the wall, praying, hoping someone will hear you. Running away without a place to go, wishing you were anywhere but there.

Walking but feeling like you're standing in place. The worst part is realizing no one can understand you, not even yourself and the people you thought would help you are leaving you at your enemy's hands.

Then one day you wake up from a bad dream only to realize that waking up was walking into a nightmare. Because there is no nightmare quite like being in hell but having no place to find respite.

Then you end up hating life and lose a taste for the pleasures of living. Then you realize you just want to get it over with and die.

So you try it, but then you realize it is not you who deserves to die, it is the demons that brought you to such a low state who need to be punished.

You survive, damaged but alive. Swearing never again to be oppressed by the same foul creatures.

Suicide is never the answer, for the things you find too grave to forgive; just let them go and live your life.

Monday, November 30, 2015

Quotable Quotes (Thoughts) on Life and Love



By: Lester Taga Capas

Of what use is your intelligence and logic if your heart is not at peace? Before you seek any knowledge, find first your inner peace. Otherwise, your search for knowledge and fulfilment will be troublesome and barren. Leaving only room for disappointment and pain. Learn from the mistakes of others, but don't be afraid to learn new things for yourself. 




Life as they say is short, but for one who lives it in peace, it is long enough to satisfy the longing of the spirit.

It is a cruel form of self-torture to love someone who would not care if you died tonight. Not only is it futile and masochistic to keep holding on to someone who doesn't love you, it is insane. Your misplaced sense of sympathy and affection will bring you only pain. 

Worth it? Give yourself a good slap on the face and tell yourself that it is worth it. The first person you should love is yourself. Unless you love yourself you can never truly love anyone else. Not everyone is worth it and instead of wasting time and love on the wrong person, learn to give it to someone else. 

Give yourself a chance to find someone more deserving of your love because you only live once and wasting it on the wrong person is the biggest mistake you will ever make

Monday, November 23, 2015

Thoughts and Quotes on Christianity and Life



By LESTER TAGA CAPAS

All because someone says Hallelujah and praise the lord, it doesn't make them good people. The works of your hands are the witness to whether or not you are truly good or bad. What use is it to the lord to be praised by one who does the work of the devil? 




To do good with a humble heart is to praise the lord with a song louder than the booming sound of thunder. Do not be Christian only by name and baptism. At your confirmation you swore to renounce the devil and all his works... Make good on your word or you are fooling no one else but yourself.
There is little room in heaven for a Laodicea spirit. You are either Hot or you are cold, none in between.

The heart breaks only for so long. It's standing on the broken pieces that hurt and keep you from moving on. Taking a step forward with broken pieces on your heels is painful. But the more you move forward, the less pain you take with you and the bigger chances you have of meeting someone new to love.

There's nothing wrong with letting people know when you've done good. However, if you are doing well for the sake of boasting, that is a different story. Don't you think it makes you a haughty jackass to make huge tarpaulins with a giant image of yourself? When in fact, you are wasting the people's money on stupid projects with a ridiculously big budget and kickback? 

If you mark relief goods with your name and symbol even if the goods were paid for by someone else, then you are one thick skinned idiot who is likely scheduled for a date with the devil when you die ... Kindly read Matthew 6:1-10, doing good requires humility....Even Jesus never boasted about his good deeds...in fact... in many occasions he would even tell the people he helped not to tell anyone about it...Doing good rightly is doing it with humility.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Poetry: Remembering Love

Remembering love that month of May,

when robins sang their merry way.

We danced and waltzed into the night.

In delightful pleasure, we took flight.

We vowed our love will last forever,

Amidst the rain, storm and thunder.

Our hugs were tight and unrelenting,

We wished the night was never-ending.

But, alas! You have to travel far away,

To foreign lands and work all day.

Your memories will hover like a dove,

Inside my head, remembering love.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Poetry, In Memory of a Loved one


The moon, the sun, the star,
ablaze in the sky, from afar,
shining in the air up above,
in memory of the one I love.

The palm, the tree, the flower,
they whistle, they sway, they prosper,
Wafting through the glade, undone,
in memory of a loved one.

You are my world, my night, my day.
The color of my new mown hay.
You are my soul, my mind, my dove,
in memory of the one I love.


Image credit: Lydia Ballog/Cioux

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Quotes on Love, Life and Religion

By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS

 “Love isn't a tree that magically appears it is a seed that needs to planted, nurtured, cared for and frankly people are better at chopping trees down.”

“People should live long enough to suffer for their sins and realize their mistakes. Death is the easy way out and the coward's exit.”


Sagada Mountains, Image credit: Cioux Casala


“If you are going to establish your religion by targeting and pointing out the errors of other faiths you are better off raising a chick for cock fights. There's a reason why the Catholic faith does not hit back at other denominations attempting to smear mud upon it. It's because the faith believes in Love and turning the other cheek. I just wish more Catholics spent time actually listening to the Gospel, reading the holy book and trying to live the word in their life. It's sad to see that there are a lot of people who turn from the faith because they feel spiritually starved. You won't starve if you have the initiative to learn and understand what your faith is about. Don't limit yourself to just attending mass every Sunday. Your busy schedule should never be too busy for the one who gave you time to live in the first place.”

“Give the key to your happiness to someone else and they'll forget they even had it. Give the key to your happiness to the lord, you will see everything you had ever gone through was worth it.”

“Some people will repay your love but some people will leave you with a hurting heart and a sack of broken promises.”

“Sometimes, in trying to fix the hole in the hearts of other people by pouring out your love for them, you end up draining yourself and lose sight of who you are in the process.”

“A pretty face isn't of much use, unless you are joining a pageant, attracting people's attention /drawing their admiration or finding a potential mate. It's easy to damage those delicate faces , a single scratch across the cheek and it dampens their appeal. A good attitude however is harder to crush especially when the person is patient. Aside from which it makes the atmosphere feel better and people stay with you longer.”

“Most of the time, smart people speak plainly and put things on a level you can understand.” “Idiots make no sense in attempting to make things sound smart and complicated.”

“Just because you're not getting love from the person you want it to come from, it doesn't mean you're not getting any. Sometimes people forget how much care and affection they are actually getting when it's not coming from the person they love most.”

“You never really know who's happy with their life and who's getting ready to call it quits. One moment you're talking to someone, the next they're in a box.”

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Quotes on Life and Love

By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS

Life isn't about choices, having more money than some else or who gets the trophy and who ranks more, life is just being happy enough to want to live the next day.

On their way home from Sunday service a pastor and a tired office worker sat together at the terminal seat, waiting for a jeepney.





Lifting the soda can from his mouth the pastor blessed a passing beggar and noticed the office worker digging deep into his pocket.

Giving a single coin to the beggar. Pastor: That beggar is dying of hunger and you gave him a single coin?

Brother, remember the lesson about giving what you have? Office worker: Well sir, at least he doesn't have a vulgar and irritable boss breathing down his throat every day; water bills, electric bills, taxes, customers to satisfy.

All-nighters with no sleep but work the next day.

Debts, five children, pesky in laws a nagging wife who thinks you're cheating on her when in fact you're killing yourself just to make sure your children have something to eat.

Saying sorry to your daughter because you can't afford to send her to school. Slowly going crazy just trying to make ends meet and passing out because you haven't eaten but need to work. How does your soda taste?

I don't know because I can't even afford the full ride home. I have to get down halfway and walk the rest of the road on my tired legs. I don't see you dropping a single coin? Shall I give the beggar all my problems because that is all I have?

"Don't judge the way other people are trying to help regardless of your status in life. You never know how much other people are actually giving because you are not them. You are free to preach but not to judge."

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Quotes on Education, Life, Love and Friendship


By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS


“Life is hard when you are busy hanging on to the person you want so badly in your life. It is frightening to think of how hard it would be to find someone new and invest feelings from ground zero. But in truth, hanging on to someone who is beating your brains in is a lot harder than trying to bump into someone new.”





“If you are studying for grades you won't learn half as much as you would if you were studying to learn what you will need to know when the time comes for you to use it.”

“If you're going to correct someone for their mistake, just tell them what they did wrong and offer advice to a good resolution. There is no need to degrade or mock someone who is already down. If you cannot contribute to the solution then you have no business telling someone else they made a mistake.”

“Any speaking person can blabber; it takes a brain to actually say something.”

“How convenient is it for those friends of yours to deny and reject you when they no longer need you? Quite easy, in fact give it a few years and they will only remember the times you got them upset or angry. Boy, the world is cruel, don't expect the next life to be any more forgiving than the one you have now. The rope around your neck will serve you no better than the love you wasted trying to keep people from pushing away. Your faults are everything that you are to them. A thorn on the side, demanding attention and love when all they really want to do is pull you out. You think you are free but you're like a pet in a wheel, running thinking he's going somewhere when in truth he's stuck in place. Sure, some of them will kick it with you now, but wait for them to grow tired of your heart then see how many will stay. Where are they anyway? These people who swore they would stand by you? Gone right? I warned you about them and how they stab you in the back when you are not around but no, you just wouldn't listen. I'd step back in if I could wipe that tear flowing from your cheek but you don't deserve a friend as much as a bullet in the liver.”

“Takes a madman to argue with one, a wise man to stay away from one but a saint to understand that madmen need Love not the loss of a silly argument.”

“Life is hard when you are busy hanging on to the person you want so badly in your life. It is frightening to think of how hard it would be to find someone new and invest feelings from ground zero. But in truth, hanging on to someone who is beating your brains in is a lot harder than trying to bump into someone new.”

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Thoughts on Life, God and Love



By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS

“The difference between angels and demons? The angels follow the will of God while the demons find ways to justify that what they are doing wrong is right.”

“Heaven will not have me for I am neither hot nor cold, just a tasteless morsel that isn't really welcome to stay. Hell will accept anybody but I guess even the devil can be choosy. Purgatory won't have me either, they don't accept those that are hopelessly dirty. Earth has no choice I guess, but you can't really stop anyone from hoping can you? I don't know, maybe if I manage to fix myself one day a door will open and have me. Until then, I guess I'll just keep knocking.”





"Sometimes you want to talk to people but you can't because you are afraid of what they may say. Sometimes after saying something you're afraid of keeping the conversation going in fear of offending the person you are talking to. And then when you finally do offend them, you are afraid they will never talk to you again so you apologize, a lot. Sometimes, to no avail. Sometimes you want to keep people in your life but the more you hang on, the more they will push you aside because whether you intended it or not, your actions went overboard, you were just too much.”

“Sometimes , it's not that you don't want to say how you feel, you're just afraid things will go so bad; that you will lose the person you fought so hard to keep in your life. Then years later you realize it was all for nothing.”

“Deaf to advice but blind to one's own mistakes, the qualities of someone who should never be a leader.”

“Whenever I meditate I take myself back to the memories of that peaceful and beautiful place. I close my eyes and take a deep breath as I recall the events that took place and made me happy. Only to open my eyes and realize that I am not quite welcome there anymore.”

“There will always be bad people that you don't want in your life, the resolution is yours.”
“It doesn't matter how much you want someone to see you, it is and always be a matter of: are they willing to see you?”

“You had everything that you have ever wanted, even more than that. Just because you didn't get everything, it doesn't mean you've suffered. Your life is anything but tragic and there will always be someone else who suffered more than you.” 

“Sometimes in trying to make things perfect, you end up doing it wrong. The only way to really do something is to enjoy it.”

“Just because you're all grown up and acting mature it doesn't mean the kid in you is dead. There are just some things you can never outgrow because they are what make you who you are.”
“Take pride in your flaws, not everyone has the guts to give it a shot.”

“You won't understand a single thing if you cram and take in information simultaneously. The best way to study is to relax and let your lessons sink in with time.”

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Quotes on Life, Love and God

BY: LESTER TAGA CAPAS 
 
“Whenever I look up in awe of the skies, I can't help but raise an arm towards the clouds as if I can actually feel them. As I look on in admiration it doesn't take long to realize that they are far, far from my short reach and in reality I can only stand my ground, take a deep breath, close my eyes and pretend that I am up there with the clouds. Clouds in a way are like some people, far from my reach. I can talk to them and pretend the wind that blows from their direction is the reply. But there is no reaching them for they are far, far from my reach.”




“For an advocate of atheism you sure are lousy. Judging people who believe in god as if they are all the same. You hate on something you don't believe and mock what other people hold sacred yet you sit comfortably unwilling to lift a finger to help other people. You are quick to point out all the faults you see but never mention the good that you do see. Why don't you sit down in front of the mirror and write down all the imperfections you see in yourself and try not to lie about it? Things that happen, happen, and you have free will like everyone else. I don't know why things like cancer, violence and rape happens but I’m pretty sure we all have the free will to try and make a difference even if some things are out of our control, being pessimistic and judgmental, whiny and indifferent solves nothing. But prayer eases the heart and appeases the spirit.”

“Some People cheer violence and laugh at sincerity. Forgetting gratitude but strengthening their insecurities and minimizing trust. They jeer at a guy who has stumbled but won't budge to help them up. Mocking and questioning god when they have nothing to show for their pride and cold heart. Becoming less moral and more subversive as clothes get shorter and perfumes more tempting. Then you ask what is wrong with world? People, some people are what are wrong with this place.”

“You can't control how people will change but it is your choice to love them for whatever they become.”

“The criminal is not the person who steals for food. The criminal is the person who kills another man in the name of a misguided sense of patriotism and corrupted opinion of justice.”

“These people, who raise their hands in the sign of the devil, wear excessive make up, sell their souls for rock and roll and whatever they can sell it for. Going around with a silly pentagram and tattooing the number of the beast on their forehead as if it makes them look tougher. These aren't Satanists; these are just some poor stupid fools thinking the devil gives a damn about whether they dress up as a practitioner of black magic or a chicken suit. The real Satanists are the people who use the name of god, faith and country to further expand their power and multiply their riches while other people starve in the streets. A good example is that black b__d whose heart is blacker than his skin.”

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Quotable Quotes on Love, Life and Anger


“One of the things you won't get from a book is experience.”

“People who love you for nothing will love you even when you've lost everything.”

“Wit is not measured by how much one can say and argue but by how much of it makes sense.”

“Some of the biggest prizes come after only the hardest of sacrifices.”

“Sometimes I sit and ask myself, when people are about to die? Do they ask in wonder of what comes after? Or do they just clasp their hands and hope they have done more right than wrong in their lives?”





“Right now you're angry but you won't be later. Right now you are confused but it will make sense later. Right now you are frowning but you may just be smiling later. So if you are angry, irritated or sad then keep calm and let it pass or you might just have a black eye later.”

“Why on earth would you fight fire with fire, knowing it could potentially cause higher casualties? If someone is burning with anger then grab a bucket of ice water and splash it continuously onto their face until they calm down. If you fight anger with anger then you are likely going to suffer many consequences.”

“You can't pass your skills on to another person but you can inspire them to develop their own and maybe they may even exceed you given time.”

“Yes you are clean, clean as a white piece of cloth without stain. But add a tiny speck and people will notice and judge you for your faults without looking at the parts that have no dirt. I am like a dirty rag, dirty regardless of how you clean it. No stain can add to my imperfections but though you may not want me, you will need me the next time you make a mess.”

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Picture of Landscapes, Sagada Underground River

One of the wonders and tourist spots of Sagada, Mountain Province is its underground river. Here's a picture taken by Cioux Casala during a tour of the province.
Underground River in Sagada, Image credit: Cioux Casala

Quotable Quotes on Love, Life and Humanity


By: LESTER TAGA CAPAS

“Attacking the person speaking the truth doesn't change the fact that what he is saying is true.” “If you don't want to listen to reason but you don't know what to do with your life then be quiet and let other people live theirs.”


Quotable Quotes on Love



“Before you give your heart to someone make sure they have a beating heart. Not a frozen organ or hole in their chest.”

“I don't presume to know more than other people especially when it comes to habits and vices. I don't think I know better than what they want to do with their life but if there is anything I believe I have all the rights to say, it's more along the lines of " see you in the Emergency room" where I get to say "I told you so"

“No, you don't know that eating too much, getting too drunk, smoking a cancer stick and doing drugs is bad for your health. You don't know because if you did, you wouldn't be doing it.”

“Only two things can happen, either you will or you won't. How you handle the outcome determines if it was worth it or not.”

“If the only thing you seek to satisfy are your mortal needs then your spiritual necessities will suffer.” “People get lost in seeking the path to righteousness because they choose to lead themselves instead of putting their faith in their maker.”

“Never let your anger overpower your love. You will only regret hurting the people you love after the deed is done.” “People who understand the good book know better than to fight over its contents.”

“A decade of friendship and still that proud arrogant prick managed to throw away Ten years of my trust into the pit. I hope that monster gets back while the pit is still hot.”

“Don't ever be too confident in your own brilliance that it becomes arrogance. When a good person makes a mistake he is easily forgiven. When a proud man makes a mistake, many will be waiting to push down deeper.”

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Original Quotable Quotes on Love, Education, and Life


By: Lester Taga Capas

“The best way to enjoy eating is to share your food with someone. Not only are you satisfying the hunger in your stomach but the hunger of the spirit to constantly do good to others.”





“I dislike conceited people who think everyone else is below them. Even if their brains were served to me on a golden plate drizzled with olive oil, lined with thyme, white truffles, and a beautifully blended sauce of apples, red wine and beef stock cooked to perfection, with a side dish of red ripe tomatoes and perfectly cooked small slice of steak. I would throw it out and feed it to the flea infested dogs that scavenge through waste cans for food. Before which I would beat it with a shovel like an empty soda can. No matter how you serve trash, it will always be the garbage that it is. Their brain on a plate no matter how garnished is excrement no less. Foul with pride and drenched in the repulsive stench of stupidity. Not even a desperate zombie in dire straits would waste time cracking open their skull to get to the emptiness within.”

“If you reject someone's apology because you are looking for trouble, do not be surprised when you get it.”

“A sincere apology is an admittance of humanity and example of one's strength in spirit. It is in no way a weakness for it is proof that we are responsible and aware of our actions.”
“You can't really expect other people to show the same level of kindness you have given them. But you can always look forward to someone doing worse than what you have done to them, intentional or not.”

“Give someone your heart and they might drop it. Hold it with them and it will be intact even if the other lets go.”

“You can teach a man to carve an artwork from a piece of wood but their work and yours will never be exactly the same. He can never make a piece of art with the same effort that you have put into yours but he may one day hone his skills to exceed yours. Never expect another person to be able to fill in your place the exact same way you did. But you can look forward to them doing better.”

“The foundations of our humanity are built on our ability to help and love others in the name of Charity, conscience and good will. Without which you are something other than human.”
“Just say what you have to say and be careful how you say it. Tell people what you need them to hear not what you think will please them. It is better for you to be honest about a leak you can't fix than have an ugly water bill after.”

The Virgin Mary's Various Faces

The Blessed Virgin Mary is a symbol of strength, courage and fortitude for Christians. She is the Mother of Jesus Christ and is the Mother of Christianity. Here are pictures that represents the different faces of the Virgin Mary.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Laboratory Pictures and Images

Laboratory apparatus materials are needed in the performance of experiments. Here are some of the most common lab instruments that are used in the clinical laboratory.
The Water Bath - used in heating and incubating solutions
Hot plate/rotator - use to heat and dissolve solutions
centrifuge - machine used to settle down solutions of different specific gravities
Microtome - use to cut ribbon tissues
Centrifuge - same as above
microscopes - use to observe microscopic organisms

Quotable Quotes about Life, Love, and Humanity

Quotable Quotes by: LESTER TAGA CAPAS

“People who point out your natural imperfections are overlooking your maker's efforts to make you special.” 

“Ignore the empty headed imbeciles who are never satisfied with you regardless of your efforts. They, who are blind to your hard work, do not deserve your company.” 





“People who remember when they are wronged but ignore when they are loved just have trust issues.” 

“I pity the kid whose parents never allowed the child to play in the rain every once in a while. You may fear for the child's safety but don't let that get in the way of the kid having a happy childhood, everyone deserves the simple joys in life.” 

“To force an orchid to bloom is to sentence it to an early withering. Because of the use of fertilizers, the bottom flowers are dying even before the top can bloom. The flowers were big and healthy, but inside they lacked the strength they would have gotten more nurturing time. Same thing can happen to a person. If you force them to bloom they will likely have weak and wavering foundations.” 

“Don't wear out the people who love you whether or not the sun is shining. These are the people who will do everything they can to keep you warm in the rain.” 

“To be hurt by a stranger is no more lasting or superficial than the wound. To be hurt by someone you love pierces straight through the heart, and whether or not they help you mend determines much of how long the pain will last.” 

“Sometimes you just have to open your mouth as wide as you can and take in as much air as possible before letting it out. Just don't keep it open too long. Jaw pain is never pretty.” 

“Man and all his knowledge and ingenuity can never make anything without the materials the lord has already made.” 

“The sandwich will never speak ill of you, it will never betray you for it is loyal and unwavering. Treat the sandwich with care and it will satisfy your hunger not thirst. You can't drink a sandwich. But the sandwich will definitely let you put it through a blender so you can have the sensation of drinking it. Love the sandwich, trust the sandwich for it will love you back and sacrifice itself for your satisfaction. The sandwich is your friend but alas I hunger. Goodbye sandwich I shall devour you as I will engulf most of those who will come after you. But take pride brave sandwich for though you enter the belly of the sandwich eater you will be remembered as one tasty sandwich. “

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Rainbow Pictures

Rainbows are God' gifts to us. They're colorful and beautiful see see. Here are some rainbow pictures that you can watch in the comforts of your room. Enjoy!