Saturday, September 18, 2010

A Journey Into the Unknown

(Due to inevitable reasons, the story "The Wanderer.." will continue next week. In the meantime, here is what I can offer in its place.)


It was the first day in school and everyone was eager to start the year. The students were excitedly updating each other with their latest escapades. There were a few of them lost in their own world, nevertheless, the air was charged with great expectancy and adventure.

I stood there at the entrance taking all of these in. My pulses quickened, and I can feel my heart do a flip. It was my very first exposure to teaching and I was apprehensive and nervous as how it would turn out to be. I reminded myself that I have made all the necessary preparations so I assumed it should proceed like a breeze. But looking at them now, I didn't expect a college class to be as "rowdy" as this one. I had expected to walk into an organized, attentive class, with all of them seated in their designated places.

Someone noticed me and turned to his classmates, "Sshhhh, she's here..." The din inside the classroom slowly diminished - as one by one - they went back to their seats. Then there was complete silence, I could hear a pin drop. I was amazed at how the ambiance changed in just a few minutes. I walked in and assumed the sternest face I could muster.

I introduced myself, gave a brief summary of the course, have their class cards accomplished and distributed their syllabus. During all these processes, I spoke in firm tones and never smiled. My hands however, were shaking behind my back, and my knees were wobbly. If they only knew how nervous I was, they may have come after me like a pack of wolves.

My first lesson was about endocrinology. I have reviewed the material thoroughly so I went on like an automaton trying to impress them with my cognitive abilities. One brave student asked several questions trying to test the waters. I was acutely aware of that, and it made me wary.

I went on to explain about the functions of the endocrine glands, the hormones they produced, the assays applicable to these hormones, and all pertinent information related to the topic.

Well, they listened and I survived my first day in college. Nothing disastrous happened. I was able to give a two-hour lecture without collapsing in the middle of my presentation. But after the class, I was like a deflated balloon, so relieved that I was able to make it through.

As days passed, I gained more experience. I came to realize that teaching is not just being able to deliver the lesson for the day. Teaching should also be an interactive process amidst a friendly atmosphere. It should promote an environment of respect and should provide enough freedom for students to be able to express themselves without fear of censure and sanction. They learn more in this set-up than in a rigid and straight-laced method.

I have also learned that adapting the "carrot method" (positive approach merits are awarded for good performances) encourages more student participation than the "stick method" (negative approach- sanctions are given for low performances)

A few of my students during my first year of exposure to college are now my colleagues in the University, and I take pride in stating that they had turned out to be very competent and effective instructors.


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Saturday, September 4, 2010

Alfredo's Resort







Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The Wanderer

Damn that airline, service was so slow. Now she was running late!  For the first time in her life, Ann swore.

She stormed through the house and ran all the way to the bedroom. She was fervently praying Allan was still there. But as she flung the door open, the eerie stillness of the room greeted her. Allan was gone. On the side table was a letter with her name on it. Allan's powerful strokes stared back at her, begging her to open it quickly.

Ann - her hands trembling - slowly unfolded the letter ...


My Darling,

You know, I have not been fair to you in some of the things I have said. I'm sorry, please forgive me. I LOVE YOU. My life made me so negative that I stopped believing in everything. I began to think the worst first, always. I lost faith in human beings. Just lost faith. Even in my self.

Then you came and I fell in love with you and I could not believe  that I could actually feel this way. I can't stop thinking of you. You know my habit of tearing up things I write also applies to everything else, I jsut tear, delete or drop things in life just like that and not even look back.  Not a good thing to do.

Now you are there and I still keep thinking that it's not possible that after so much, someone has come who actually loves me. I hope you are following and not over reading like I also do, imagining things that are not there.

I suppose I am really plain dumb. I keep getting negative thoughts and imagining things.

I know that if I lose this love there will never be another chance for me.  I can't let that happen.

I did not sleep well last night. Went for a ride then came back and slept. Got up at around 12 and read your message. It was early when you had sent it. Were you still awake?  So I started thinking  she must have been awake on the computer . See, how negatively I start thinking. 

When I saw that the message you sent was early I immediately thought she did not even sleep she was still at the comp. I am giving you an example of what is ahppening to me, thinking all sorts of things. I don't know why, I have never been like this. You were still on the computer after we finished talking that means you were talking to someone and that means she does not really love me. This is what is happening to my mind. All kinds of scenarios.

I guess this all stems from my loss of faith in everything around me and even though I know that I love you I keep thinking she cannot love me too, that it is not possible for anyone to love me. Like how can anyone love a crackpot, like that.

I feel sad and happy at the same time. One minute believing and the next not believing, that it can't be. It's a dream. A fairytale.

I LOVE YOU ANN!

Love you,
will you love me always,
like I love you,
or will you just disappear like a dream?

Allan


TO BE CONTINUED...






Saturday, August 21, 2010

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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

BINTANA

By EVER

Sad trip ang dating ko nung buksan ko ang bintana,marami akong mga bagay na na-aalala,gusto ko na ngang batukan ang sarili ko,kung bakit naisipan ko pang tumingin sa labas ng bintana,ito ang mga iniiwasan ko, ang mga ganitong tema,masyado akong nagiging emosyonal,pakiramdam ko lahat ng mga problema binubulungan ako,lahat ng mga bagay naalala ko.masaya,malungkot,masama at mabuti.. eto ako ngayon,nakatulala at nakatingin sa malayo na wala namang tinatanaw …


BINTANA

Bintana ang lugar kung saan matatanaw
Kung saan naglalakbay ang mga pananaw
Dito rin makikita ang espasyo ng buhay
Mga pangarap na nagtatampisaw

Ibat-ibang uri,ibat-ibang bagay
Lahat may kilos lahat may galaw
Di mo mapapansin malalaking bagay
Kumpara sa maliit mas mararamdaman

Sa aking pag dungaw malungkot ang tanaw
Pagkat ala-ala pumasok sa isipan
Pilitin mang baguhin sa kasiyahan
Di kayang itago ng katotohanan

Ngayon sa pagsara ng dahan dahan
Anino ng hangin ay maiiwan
At bukas, sa muling pagdungaw
Sa bintana. haharapin ang kinabukasan.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR


Si Ever ng Pamatayhomesick ay isa sa mga magigiting na OFWs. Isa siyang Filipinong bayani sa disyerto ng Farwaniya, Kuwait.Sabi niya " maliban sa pagpipinta,kinagigiliwan ko rin malaman ang tradisyon,lugar at,ang ibat ibang kulturang aking ginagalawan..."

"Aside from painting, I am passionate to learn about the variety of cultures, traditions and the fascinating places around me."

This poem "Window" mused about various thoughts that crossed the mind of the poet as he looked out of the window.  The feelings of regret and realization of the truth made him melancholic.  

I know Ever has more "meaning" in this poem, and I don't think I can capture them in just a few sentences.

Ever is a popular artist, a poet, a writer and a remarkable blogger. He writes for his blog, "Pamatay Homesik" where his posts are well commented on. Insouciant like an impish child, he depicts the happy side of the harsh realities of life abroad. I always had a smile on my lips after reading his wonderful articles about life in the deserts of Kuwait.

He has been a finalist for the PBA (Philippine Blog Awards in Arts and Culture) in 2008 and 2009, for Best Filipiniana Blog.

He is not only a blogging superstar but is also a TV star. He and his artist group ADHIKA were featured in both of the leading National TV stations Channel 2 and Channel 7 in a special show featuring Filipinos abroad.

Ever, thanks for this beautiful poem. Sana marami pang kasunod.






Monday, August 9, 2010

Panagbenga Festival, Baguio City, Philippines